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By now most (?) Americans (I say most because some adults that I have talked to in the US know surprisingly little about a lot) have probably heard about Greta Thunberg, the 16 year old girl from Sweden that left school one day to strike for the environment, which she would then do every Friday and that turned into something big, leading up to her addressing the UN in a speech earlier this week.
There are people for Greta and then those that are against Greta, some say that her whole deal is orchestrated by her parents, especially her Mother. I can say this.....when I was 16 I was boy crazy and lived for clubbing on the weekends, I loved music and dancing. I also loved horses and read a ton of books.
No matter how you look at it, Greta is doing something positive. Especially at that young age in a society where many teenage girls are preoccupied with things that really do no matter.
I realized a long time ago that I should had put that boy crazy energy I had when I was a teenager into something much more meaningful and constructive.
My regret is that I should had realized it then.
Absolutely Greta has a point. Environmental issues are of uttermost urgency. Some say it's too late. That we have reached a point of no return. If you dismiss Greta because you think she is young and does not know what she is talking about then perhaps the scientists at NASA can make you realize a thing or two about climate change.
When I was in Sweden a few months ago I got ONE book. A small book with an important message, Greta Thunberg's "No One Is Too Small To Make A Difference". So very true. Most of us can do something. I believe in NOT littering. Picking up trash, yes even if its not yours. Recycling. Eating less meat and fish (I do not eat meat or fish at all), no reason to eat meat everyday.
But of course I can do more. Oh and I think that Greta is great.
Another thing and for many this is a difficult concept to grasp....understanding that the world is overpopulated and that squeezing out a bunch of kids probably isn't best thing to do. Limit the amount of children you produce or how about not having any at all? I am glad that I decided not to have any, I feel bad for the kids that have to grow up in today's world.

Area 51

Area 51 has been in the news a lot lately due to Alienstock, the "takeover" or raid that prompted people from all over to gather in Rachel, Nevada. Initially there was talks of a couple of million people gathering for the raid and in the end a fraction showed up. Traveling to remote places is easier said than done. Rachel is located about 150 miles from Las Vegas.
Well.....I have been to Rachel several times, not at all out of the way for me. I heard a sonic boom twice while sitting at Little A'Le'Inn, Area 51 is after all a U.S. Air Force training range. After following directions from one of the locals and driving down an unmarked dirt road for ten miles I arrived to a point where I stopped the car and read a sign that basically said that deadly force may be used if crossing into Area 51. A black SUV was already there, "they" (Area 51 military people) knew they had visitors. We (I was with my ex boyfriend) sat there for about 10 minutes while I recorded with my VHS (I need to find that tape!), this was before cell phones. And before Instagram. Some people travel to places only for content for their Instagram Feed, I traveled all over the beautiful Southwest in my old Toyota 4Runner for the love of nature, hot springs, hiking, camping, feeling alive and exploring.
There is a lot going on with theories about extraterrestrials and unidentified flying objects. Even the US Navy recently admitted to some footage showing UFOs.
I watched that footage. Some highly religious people might have a very difficult time coming to terms with intelligent life on other planets, should this be true.
I think there is so much information out there hidden from us on purpose.
I spent many nights camping in my car in the middle of nowhere, never seen a UFO or an alien (that I know of) but I did experience feeling scared and strongly feeling that something was not right while spending the night at an Indian petroglyph site in Ash Springs, Nevada. We were not welcome there during the night. I explored the area during the day but nighttime was completely different.
Here I am.....back in 2003.

And The Rest

And here is the rest of some random pic from this year's Burning Man.....
Latte at Center Camp. Best day to start the day if you ask me.

Daily playa look.

Center Camp painting.


Be awesome in an awesome place. See you next year Black Rock City! ❤️

Playa Barbie 2019

This year I didn't see the usual Playa Barbie Black Rock City Edition box that I take my yearly Barbie picture in. By the time I looked at the map and biked over to where it supposedly was placed I couldn't find it. PANIC! Not really more like, "where is my box"? I think I got there too late, this is what happens when you have a lot on your plate while in Black Rock City. Fortunately I found two other Barbie boxes, Barbie Death Camp and another one that played "Barbie Girl" by Aqua when you stepped inside of it.
So.....YES, there is a Playa Barbie 2019 after all. And here she is.....!


I am writing this 3,000th entry somewhere on the Oregon Coast in a super cool bookstore filled with amazing books and stuff, the WiFi password is Bukowski and I am pretending that I am a world renowned author typing my next big novel.
I will have a lot of pages to print when I am ready to start printing out my blog so I can put it away in a drawer and read it at some point in my life. Right now I feel like I won't renew the blog after next renewal date which falls in August of next year. This is how I feel now, so that is of course subjected to change. I am writing less nowadays by far, I am busy with other things although I still love writing, photography and expressing myself. Perhaps I am done sharing certain things about me and what I life has changed in the last few years and it certainly has changed since I left Alaska and as far as personal relationships fot the much better since Kenai.
But there is almost a year left until August of next I can probably come up with a few more entries until then. Thanks for reading and if you are bored you can always entertain yourself and read the blog from the beginning. 3000 entries to enjoy. You know that you need Tatiana! :-)

10 Principles

For some years now there has been widespread criticism of people going to Burning Man for the wrong reasons.....mainly the Instagram "models'/"influencers" and the presence of "plug and play" aka "turnkey" camps. To me those are not real models, anyone can squeeze into a one piece bathing suit, (important to hike it up in between the butt cheeks) and some platform boots, glue rhinestones on a captains or steampunk hat and apply stickers to the face. Throw in something with a unicorn as well and voilà you are Instagram photo ready! As far as influencers go, there is not a single "influencer" that has influenced me to purchase a laxative diet tea, some vape product or whatever else they might be promoting. Yeah....the Instagram "culture" and those "models" striking the same poses at Burning Man is in my eyes (I roll my eyes when I see them) lame. I got a couple of platform boots back in 2002 in London that I still have, although comfortable and super nice I would never wear those at Burning Man.....biking around all day in platform boots? No thanks but to these "models" image is everything and being at Burning Man is giving them photos for their Instagram and that it all that matters.....not Burning Man and what it stands for, which by the way is governed by the 10 Principles of Burning Man.

I think these "influencers" should just stick with Coachella. As far as the turnkey camps, one camp banned by Burning Man was a camp called Humano the Tribe, they charged people outrageous prices to camp with them and yes some people are willing to pay those amounts. Which is OK I guess but me personally I would never do that even IF I had that kind of money to throw around. I would much rather purchase a general entry ticket, share an RV and do something good with the rest of the thousands of dollars left over. Humano the Tribe charged between $25,000 - $100,000 for a luxurious tipi and organic meals and whatever else they provided. WTF???
But it is what that camp did or did not do at Burning Man that got them banned and rightfully so.
All of this resulted in a letter from Marian Goodell back in February.

But as this year's art theme Metamorphoses.....everything changes and that applies to Burning Man as well. I think that once the cool factor of Burning Man settles and/or the models inhale too much dust and decide that Burning Man is a bit too harsh for them and their carefully applied fake image then things will level out.
Burning Man is still saturated with people that are there for the event and what it stands for.
I especially like the Earth Guardians. I attended a couple of presentations there this year about the environment and also about the search for Kraken the giant squid (I am fascinated with deep sea creatures).

And I also love the Dr.Bronner's camp, this year they called themselves Fomogenesis. It is the foam camp but their message is deep, educational and important. They too offer presentations, there is a lot to learn and soak in there besides the foam.

Now do I take pics of all kinds of things including myself at Burning Man? Absolutely. And I will continue to do that. But I do not go to Burning Man with the sole purpose of getting "sexy" pics of myself posing on the playa in the "right" outfit so I can feed my Instagram flow. That was never my purpose. At this point in my Burning Man journey I feel that I have to PARTICIPATE more and more.
Only attending felt like not enough halfway into my second Burn.

Barista & DJ

I did some volunteering this year again as a barista in Center Camp. Like always - FUN! I ❤️ Center Camp, such a great place!

And I also had three DJ slots at Planet Earth. Tuesday night I did an hour of Depeche Mode tribute to a mostly empty outdoors dance floor. But I had the playa to look at the whole time and that is not a bad view.

Then I had one slot Friday night and another one Sunday night inside.

I ❤️ Planet Earth.


The art theme for Burning Man 2019 was Metamorphoses. The amount of work, creativity and dedication that it takes to make and bring the art to the playa is so impressive.
I will quote what Burning Man has to say about this year's art theme. Because I can't say it better than they do.
"Burning Man is routinely described as transformative. At the personal level, a transformative experience. At the group level, a transformative event or culture. What does that really mean?

From “It changed my life” to “it’s changing the world,” Burning Man is a million stories, and the through-line across them all is change. Mutability. A tempering or annealing, like metal in a forge or glass in a kiln. Shedding the dross, revealing the true nature within. A crucible of souls.

We look at ourselves and think: I want to change. My surroundings, my community, my company, my city, my country. Innovation, modification, diversification. Evolution and revolution. But how much of this is will, and how much destiny? Do our true selves lie within, like the form inside the sculptor’s marble, waiting to emerge? Or must we find some north star, set a course, and lash ourselves to the wheel? In a world of manufactured desire and alluring spectacle, can we trust our own instincts?

As much as the personal journey of change may consume us, it takes place in a broader context, a tapestry of interrelated transformations of which ours is but one thread. Looking beyond the horizon of the self, we are surrounded by and inseparable from a world in constant transition. The political landscape and the physical landscape, our planet, in a cascade of tipping points. Do we have the power to influence these changes rather than just lament them, to bend the arc of history? And if we don’t have that power, does anyone?

This year’s theme is a celebration of change, and an exploration of uncertainty. As such it invites a consideration of time; not its circular nature, or its attendant ritual, but in this case the relentless flight of time’s arrow, and an embrace of the elusive now. Memory is fickle, and the future is uncertain. None of us knows what he or she will become, but we can seek to understand where we are at this point in our transformative trajectory, this fleeting chord on the strings of existence.

Transformation happens whether we believe in it or not; but if we have learned anything in our Burning Man experience it is that we do have a say in our own futures, that agency is ours if we choose to pursue it. While we may never know the ultimate outcome, there is a shared belief that our dreams matter, and that together and as individuals we have the power to shape our own stories and transform ourselves in positive ways."

How do you not just love this? ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ THAT is Burning Man to me, when people ask.....what is it like and why do you go, describe Burning Man..... THAT is one reason why I go and just the FEELING I get when being there. I am SO grateful that I went that first time (I should had gone years sooner when I first heard about Burning Man back in 2004 or so while camping at a hot spring in Nevada) and I am grateful that Burning Man and who I am fit well together.
As usual I saw far from all the art. I made a promise to myself to put away some hours the first two or three days next time (hopefully next year) to ride around and see as much as I can of the art.
But here is some of it.


Wings of Glory

The Folly

Temple of Direction

The Man

A mushroom art car that I liked a lot.

My Home For A Week

The home for a week. Biking around feeling the wind taking hold of me and feeling free, soft playa dust, the sun setting and everything turning golden. This place is amazing.

One Week

I have been back from Burning Man for one week now. It takes a while to reintegrate to reality. Plus there is an RV to clean, laundry to be made and stuff to clean and store until next time. I have boxes just for Burning Man.

This year's What Where When book and playa dust that is waiting to be put into something else.

Omnia mutantur, nihil interit (everything changes, nothing perishes) by Orvid in his Metamorphoses (a poem) and also this year's art theme.

Yeah....I am back to reality. It is always bittersweet, that one week at Black Rock City goes by so fast. I would like to get and Early Arrival pass and be there for about ten days to get MORE out of the event, to see Black Rock City get built before the majority of the people get there. Maybe next time?