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Wednesday, July 22. 2015

Cheating

Well, since some smart person or people, hacked Ashley Madison and some other douchebag site called Established Men I thought I should add my two cents to the mix. Ashely Madison is like a meetup site for married people looking to cheat, over 37 million members in 46 countries, give and take a certain number of fake profiles. Established Men is a site where men that consider themselves wealthy (money wise) search for money hungry sugar babies to feed. Whoever hacked the sites is threatening to expose all the profiles. I think that is GREAT ! Expose all of them!
In general I am absolutely against cheating. I know that every couple has their own story and stuff happens, life happens and sometimes people cheat. Every single person has their own reason. I don't want to judge anyone but yes, in general I'm against cheating.
I have seen and heard many different stories. The woman married to a man that doesn't want to have sex, they do it perhaps twice a year and she cheated. The married woman that enjoys herself with others around here in this small town when her husband leaves and goes to work on the Slope (Prudhoe Bay). The married men that I encounter at work that are willing to do whatever and give up everything for some "fun". Gross, get away from me!
The woman that I met and talked to last week with the husband she left after she found out about him paying rent for a girl that used to work at the club here, they have two children together I should add.
Oh I too have cheated. As a teenager I cheated on a boyfriend. It was actually quite dramatic and I really hurt him (we both cried a lot) and you know what, to this day I feel guilt over it and it's my biggest relationship blunder ever and that was a long time ago. We were both teenagers, he was a year and a few months younger than me and I though he was immature but later I realized he was "perfect" but then it was too late because he found out about the cheating. The guy I cheated on him with went and told my boyfriend about us after I decided that I wanted to end the little affair and continue on with my boyfriend. The guy thought we were going to be together but I didn't want to, so he decided to get even I guess. That's how my boyfriend found out. Lots of drama. I am still to this day friends with my ex boyfriend.
He is married with two kids and actually very successful and I am happy for him. I am friends with all my significant ex boyfriends, I think that's a good thing.
But back to cheating. If you put that much effort into cheating on your spouse or significant other (if not married) that you create profiles online so you can meet up with people for some meaningless and possibly risky sex, then I think you are putting too much time and energy into it. It seems very deliberate and manipulative and just simply wrong. People make mistakes all the time, like I said I have heard and seen some stuff therefore I do not want to judge but creating a profile with the intention to cheat.....that is too much. And women that only sleep with married men, also a huge NO NO. So not cool. It's one thing if the guy lies to you about being married but if you purposefully seek out married guys then you are a cunning cunt. But then again, I know of a circumstance where the married man left his wife and got married to the other woman and everybody seemed happier afterwards.
I'm sure marriage isn't easy all the time, especially once you have kids. I feel that women sacrifice the most when starting a family. So when a guy cheats on his pregnant significant other or the woman that just gave birth to his child I want to strangle him. Not only do women risk their health (sometimes) with a pregnancy but carry another person inside of them for nine months of their life plus the lifelong responsibility once the kid comes out, give up a possible career and "ruin" their body. The quest for that young and tight body is out of control, you are supposed to bounce back really quick to your pre pregnancy body.
Perky boobs, flat stomach, no stretch marks, tight pussy. I mean it's crazy the pressures society puts on women, it's really sad actually. On top of it your significant other might be ogling other women or going to bars and strip clubs getting way too excited. Seriously if that was me, I would end up on Dateline cause my husband/boyfriend would be found dead somewhere with a severed dick, chopped up and stuffed deep down his throat and a baseball bat jammed up his ass. Yeah, I'm THAT crazy psycho bitch, OK. And proud of it! So yeah, do not talk bad about dancers, contrary to popular belief most of us are not that morally flawed. Cause I have ZERO interest in dating a married guy (I never have), I am against cheating (I learned my lesson) and I know of plenty of NON dancers that cheat. And my favorite kind of guy that comes into the club is actually the guy that is in there by chance (not a frequent visitor at all), that tells me he does not want a dance (and actually doesn't get any all night and sits away from the stage) because he is committed to his girlfriend/fiancee/wife. I think those guys are great.
Much respect to them and I never ever push the issue with some bullshit like, "come on she is not here and bla bla bla". No, I don't do that.
I also know somebody that told me he compares every girl he meets to me and that they never hold up. I only know him from the club and he is young, cute and usually single. It's a nice compliment but.....Just as much as you might be tired of your girlfriend or wife, she is tired of you and your shit too OK, don't fool yourself. Everything is more fun, interesting, hot and heavy and bla bla bla in the beginning - that's normal. Give it some time. There will always be somebody younger, better looking, richer etc. And not every relationship is meant to last forever and some are better off to end sooner than later. But we are not talking about shorter meaningless hookups now, I'm talking about committed, serious relationships. When two people supposedly love each other.
So yeah, people cheat.....millions of people apparently. Different circumstances, sometimes I guess people stay together for the sake of the kid/s or for the joint finances and not much else and they are pretty much OK with extramarital affairs. I can't judge them. I don't know what's going on in their lives. But when the other person is left in the dark and then gets devastated to find out about the cheating then I do have a problem with it. So YES, I think it would be GREAT if everybody on Ashley Madison would get exposed. I don't think sites like that promote anything positive. I mean if you are that unhappy you can separate or divorce right? And let your significant other be able to find happiness somewhere else.
Cheating can be discussed for hours, everybody that ever cheated or been cheated on have their own story, explanation and excuses. Since I have other things to do today I think I am done with my two cents for now.
But here are some public messages from me and Mandy.......I put this up on the announcement board at work.



And Mandy sent me this from somewhere in Nebraska......



Monday, July 20. 2015

Message

Last night's line up. Let the scramble for the dollar begin! We actually have fewer girls than normal for this time of year. It's just not worth it for girls to travel all the way here if they can make the same money or more wherever the live or at least not as far away. Makes sense.
This year most of the girls from somewhere else are from Florida. A few lasted a night or two and decided they did not like it and went back home, another one left and started working at the Bush Company. And a few have been up here several times and are back.



I received a message from $atan earlier today.



How do you like THAT?



Saturday, July 18. 2015

Spicy

I love spicy food! My latest addiction is Sambal Oelek (sauce/paste made from chili peppers). I've had it before but now I'm on my third jar in about a month and a half. I'm gorging on Sambal. My Mom used to tell me that spicy foods and also sauerkraut are really good for your stomach because they balance out the good and bad bacteria. I eat sauerkraut once in a while, I'm Polish after all. Speaking of sauerkraut, I am craving some pierogis stuffed with kraut right now......so good!



I looked up if too much Sambal might be bad for you but it seems like there are only benefits to it, I think you too should look into adding Sambal Oelek to your diet. Listen to nurse Tatiana, I want what's best for you! Spicy is GOOD.
Anyhow, I am glad to say that the club was really busy last night. All three stages going for a while and standing room only, that doesn't happen too often. I guess back in the day and we are talking like 10 years or so ago (before my time) it was always like that throughout the summer and girls would make crazy money but not anymore. I mean about a month ago I had the worst Saturday night I've ever had.....$50. Sure, I'm not the super aggressive hustler type but $50 is shitty for a Saturday night in any strip club, although not unheard of. Well, I've got to get going. I have stuff to do!

Friday, July 17. 2015

Spray Down

Ahhhhh, July is here, which means people are in town, which in turns means that we got more girls at work and that means more drama AND that means I might get some fun stuff to write about! :-D
Last night before work I decided that I was a bit hungry so I stopped by McDonald's and got a small coffee and an oatmeal. Oatmeal at McDonald's you might think? Yes and it's really good too! They have oatmeal at Starbucks too that is good, try it! I took it to go and looked forward to enjoying it when I arrived to work......



When I got to work the dressing room was crowded (more girls at work like I said). We have two dressing room areas. And the one I am in is the smaller of the two and that one that is supposed to be smoke free. Some girls were frenetically spraying themselves down with self tanners, creating clouds of spray. It looked like a chemtrail hazardous area in there, I wish I would had brought a gas mask with me. I opened my locker and decided to wait to eat the oatmeal until the dressing room was empty on girls and chemical clouds. While I bend down and forward to get some stuff out of my locker, this beast......ummmmm, I mean woman, bends over with her bare ass inches away from my head and sprays her neither regions down with a generous amount of FDS. What is FDS? It's Feminine Deodorant Spray in case you do not know. I got a good spray down, face and mouth. I was like.....HELLO??!! I asked her if she could take that to the bathroom perhaps and she replied, with an attitude, that she always sprays her FDS in the dressing room, even in SOUTH DAKOTA OK?! Alrighty then.
Good for you. Then her girlfriend pulls down her panties and sprays her crotch and undies down for a good 10 seconds. More chemical clouds. Yummy. Not.
Now let's talk basic common sense for a second ladies and gentlemen. If you are in a small area that happens to be crowded, it is considered rather rude to start spraying the air down with chemicals, smoke, fart and belch loudly and projectile sneeze. We all know this right? When there are other girls present in the dressing room (if it's a small dressing room) I always step away to an empty area (like the adjacent hallway or a bathroom) if I want to put on some perfume so no other girl needs to inhale it. Or if the dressing room is large enough, I take a step back and make sure nobody is directly behind me before I spritz perfume on myself.
As far as that pussy spray goes.....I don't use that stuff. I shower before work and to me that seems like it should be adequate enough to keep my privates fresh throughout the night. Never had a need for a special deodorant for my VAGINE. But everybody's VAGINE is different I guess. They should make that spray for men I think. BDS. Ball Deodorizing Spray. Men tend to have more hair down there, hence more chance of odor. Right?
This is my latest creation for the announcement board by the way, Strip Club Drama. And the "notes from Charlie" I found in the Backwoodsman magazine. That has been up there for a while, I am responsible for decorating the announcement board.



I had a group of fans from Anchorage in town visiting last night, all in the medical field, mostly surgeons. One has been reading my blog regularly for the last couple of years. So now you know in case you feel weird reading a dancer blog......it's nothing weird at all about it. I got people from all over reading about Feminine Deodorant Spray dos and don'ts and whatever else I am doing with my life. Like drinking lots of lattes and eating bread!
This is what I had on last night, in case anyone is curios.



And Boss Lady decided that it is time to collect money for the animal no kill shelter in Nikiski again. It was all Boss Lady's decision this time, she gets all the honor. We have collected a few times before, to the no kill shelter, a spay and neuter fund and a women's shelter. So this is what we got last night. $60. Not bad. Most likely, once we are done with collecting the money I will take the check over to the no kill shelter like I did last time. That was last year. Not only do we offer therapy at the club, we also give back to society! ;-)



Here I am with Chuck. He is Boss Lady's little spoiled baby. This is a normal face expression for Chuck, he mostly looks displeased with the situation in general and he barks angrily at people throughout the night but he is a little cuddly cutie once you get to know him.



Thursday, July 16. 2015

Freezing

It is freezing today, all grey and muggy out. I did not want to get up, I curled up behind Chhaya and inhaled her yummy scent, she smells SO good. But we finally had to get out of bed. Now I'm at Coffee Roasters, then I have to get some stuff to eat, then I am going to head home and clean a bit. I went on a serious cleaning mission yesterday. I want to go running later, unless it starts raining, it's been raining a lot lately. I've been so lazy......no running, not working much. Just lazy I guess. At least Chhaya did some running yesterday, chasing her ball around.



Also I think I just reconnected with a friend today and it feels really GOOD! ❤ I have been thinking about her a lot lately, every time I eat something lemony (like lemon cup cakes or Limoncello Häagen-Dazs ice cream). Maybe my thoughts connected with hers somehow on a subconscious level. We had a falling out, it doesn't matter about what anymore, nothing that we can't put behind us I hope, what matters is that we are talking again. I take friendship seriously. So it's a good day here so far! I read a very exciting article about the scariest haunted houses in the US last night and I am fantasizing about going to some in the fall.
Well, it's time to head out in the cold (60°) and get busy.

Wednesday, July 15. 2015

Meadow

Yesterday me and Chhaya went for a walk on a meadow that is full of beautiful fireweed flowers. I might have to come back here and take some more pics soon because it really is a gorgeous place. I have been here before, it's outside of Sterling and a place I take Chhaya to for a nice walk once in a while. The sun was out and it was hot.









I also met a froggie! With the cuuuuuutest little face!