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It is freezing today, all grey and muggy out. I did not want to get up, I curled up behind Chhaya and inhaled her yummy scent, she smells SO good. But we finally had to get out of bed. Now I'm at Coffee Roasters, then I have to get some stuff to eat, then I am going to head home and clean a bit. I went on a serious cleaning mission yesterday. I want to go running later, unless it starts raining, it's been raining a lot lately. I've been so running, not working much. Just lazy I guess. At least Chhaya did some running yesterday, chasing her ball around.

Also I think I just reconnected with a friend today and it feels really GOOD! ❤ I have been thinking about her a lot lately, every time I eat something lemony (like lemon cup cakes or Limoncello Häagen-Dazs ice cream). Maybe my thoughts connected with hers somehow on a subconscious level. We had a falling out, it doesn't matter about what anymore, nothing that we can't put behind us I hope, what matters is that we are talking again. I take friendship seriously. So it's a good day here so far! I read a very exciting article about the scariest haunted houses in the US last night and I am fantasizing about going to some in the fall.
Well, it's time to head out in the cold (60°) and get busy.


Yesterday me and Chhaya went for a walk on a meadow that is full of beautiful fireweed flowers. I might have to come back here and take some more pics soon because it really is a gorgeous place. I have been here before, it's outside of Sterling and a place I take Chhaya to for a nice walk once in a while. The sun was out and it was hot.

I also met a froggie! With the cuuuuuutest little face!


I might have a visitor around here.....a bear. I'm not 100% sure, so far I have gathered some evidence. I have an area in the yard that I use to feed the birds, squirrels, rabbits and whatever other animal that wants to munch on the food scraps that I've been putting out since I moved here. I throw all my veggie scraps there, potato peel, apple cores etc.....I have a tree stump that I put out bread pieces on (Odie's Deli sometimes have bagfuls of bread for free), nuts and I have three bird feeders hung up in the trees which I put suets in. Talk about crazy animal lady! The other week I put in two suets in the bird feeders, the next day when I looked both feeders were ripped off from the branches (one slightly dented) with both suets gone. Now I know that birds and squirrels come and nibble on the suets but they never finish them overnight, it takes about a week or two for them to finish the suets and I never had to pick up the bird feeders from the ground.
This morning I found these strange holes in one of my trash bins outside, I have four total. Three for stuff that I recycle and one for regular trash.

I don't know what could had ripped two holes in some sturdy plastic. A bird? Probably not, unless I have an upset woodpecker around here. I'm thinking a bear would had toppled over at least that trash bin, probably all of them while searching for food but all four were standing upright. I don't throw away food but I'm sure Chhaya's empty cans of dog food omit an enticing smell for a bear. And yes, I know that there are bear proof trash bin for purchase but I have regular large semi sturdy plastic ones. Although not bear proof.
So today I put in three new suets in the bird feeders. I also left a handful of cherries on the stump and some leftover cauliflower.

About four hours later I went outside to put an empty yoghurt container in a trash bin and decided to check on the bird feeders. One was already open and empty. I looked for the suet on the ground but couldn't find it. Maybe I have been feeding the the squirrels so well that they got strong and one, or two of them (joint effort) carried the suet up a tree and had a food party. I don't know. The cherries were gone too but that's nothing unusual.

I do have a can of bear spray, I got it mainly for camping and hiking and I never used it. I don't mind sharing my left overs with a bear or bears. But in case I do have a bear visitor, I hope that we can respectfully stay out of each others way. I don't want the bear to get upset with me or Chhaya or prey on any of the moose that come to my yard to sleep and eat the grass.
I know that this is bear and moose land and I think that the animals have the right to be here, more so than I do. I'm the one imposing on them. I hope they will allow me to co exist with them. So far so good.
Sounds crazy? Perhaps. I'm that "crazy" person that talks to animals, trees, doesn't kill spiders etc. Although I do swat at mosquitoes and horse flies when they try to suck my blood or bother Chhaya.
And that was the exciting news this Tuesday from Kenai.......!

My Day

My intention was to write this entry yesterday evening but I was submerged in a thriller and then I fell asleep. One of the questions I get on a regular basis at work is what do I do when I don't work. I have brought this up before but it's been a while so let me tell you about my day yesterday. It was Sunday, the rain was pouring down all afternoon. I drove to town, meaning Soldotna and started off my day with a latte from Kaladi. Then I did some errands, like checked my mail and went to the store.

July is the month when a lot of people come down to the Kenai Peninsula. Mainly tourism and fishing, it's summer and people from all over come to Alaska in the summer time. The parking lot at Fred Meyer is currently full of RV's. I want an RV too! Traveling around and exploring the country is so much fun. It's my dream.

I don't fish and I don't hunt. I think that fishing is BORING and I have ZERO interest in hurting an animal and yes, I consider fish an animal. I don't meet up with random guys I meet at work to "hang out" simply cause I am not interested. My job does not function as a dating service for me. I can think of a plethora of things to occupy myself with during the day than getting to know some guy I talked to the night before at work "better". It's nothing personal and it's also funny (or slightly disturbing depending on how you look at it) because some people (guys) have a very difficult time comprehending this, therefore the constant questions of what else do I I don't have a life or something, or like I don't have a life cause I don't want to meet up and do something. Yeah.....OK. Now Kenai is not en exciting place, this is not Vegas after all. It is what it is......After my errands in town I drove home and made myself something to eat. I love vegetables and I love bread.

Get some quality bread (not Wonder Bread) and some good butter. Set the oven to about 300 degrees. Slice up cheese and some thin tomato slices. Butter the bread and layer with cheese and tomato. Sprinkle oregano on top. Throw this in the oven until the cheese in melted and the bread turns a nice golden color. Then slice up other veggies like onion, cucumber and avocado and put on the sandwiches. I also sprinkle some turmeric on top. So yummy!

No meal is complete without something sweet. I had lemon cupcakes yesterday.

I got some new books and started reading as soon as I got home. I have been into thrillers for a while now. But I also got a children's book mainly for the gorgeous illustrations, My Wilderness: An Alaskan Adventure by Claudia McGehee. Based on a true story, about the American painter Rockwell Kent and his son Rocky Kent that traveled from New York to Alaska and lived on Fox Island for a while, fascinating!

At 10 PM me and Chhaya went for a walk. Earlier I ran into Cricket at the store (Cricket works at the club) she asked me if I would come to work later and I told her I had promised Chhaya to spend the evening at home with her. We went for a long had stopped raining and the air smelled fresh.

The fog rolled in later on when we were close to home. I love the fog, it makes everything feel mysterious.

I went to bed and continued reading. I read The String Diaries by Stephen Lloyd Jones, I couldn't put it is just some of the praise it got from another author, " This novel is a breakneck chase down a long winding road with the devil sitting beside you in a car."
The bedside lamp flickered and went out twice while I was reading, a bit spooky I have to say, to read scary stories in a large house surrounded by forest. But I have Chhaya so I feel safe. Then I fell asleep and there you go......a typical day for me here in Kenai.

Not Neglecting

I haven't written anything here for a few days but I am not neglecting anybody, I just feel like I don't have anything interesting to write about. Slight writers block I guess......Sure I could talk about crazy religious fanatics, people that suck at parenting, animal abuse and all of that stuff because the world never takes a break from it but I need a break from all that crap for a while. I have covered those issues so many times already and every day there are plenty of new cases of people behaving in ways that are disgusting......When I read those stories I get upset. But I'm sure I will bring it up here again sooner or later.
I have been "busy" with my usual routine. Latte every day, work a few times a week. If it's nice weather and sunny I lay out and tan. I try to engage in some fun activities with Chhaya a few times a week besides the usual daily walk where I live. Besides that I haven't done anything special, no travels, no new books. Everything is NORMAL which is good. I think I need to find a couple of new books to read and go camping and/or hiking again.
The weekend is here, the weather is beautiful. I am going to swing by the store and get some groceries for later, go home and put a blanket down on the lawn and take a nap in the sun. Life is good.

Beach In July

Today I decided it was about time to check out what the beach here in Kenai looks like nowadays, I haven't been there for a while. I don't live too far from the beach at all. So me and Chhaya went for a little beach in July walk. It was absolutely gorgeous out this evening. The ocean is so amazing. After a couple of hours outside we went home but first I had to stop and get some ice cream, had to calm my craving. Chhaya is wrapped up in a blanket and sleeping next to me. I will probably be up for a while longer, I usually stay up until about 3 am, sometimes longer.

Tittie Dollars 101

When you work in a strip club you see and hear a lot of stuff. I sit and observe and take it all in. The other week a really nice guy named Jason, that comes in frequently shared his own thoughts on why spending money on dancers is a good thing. He called it "Tittie Dollars 101". So this is how he feels about it - preach it brother!
"Spending money in a strip club is a good investment's cheaper than having a's safer than nurturing a broken's better than therapy and it's more effective than medication."
There you have it guys, so come on in and start throwing your money around!
I know for sure that I have made people feel better just by talking to them, sometimes somebody just needs to share what's on their mind and get a hug. What immediately comes to mind is the man that came in one night and stood by himself in a corner, looking kind of sad. Turned out that his beloved four legged friend had passed on that day and he could not bear to be home alone with his thoughts. Just writing this makes me tear up. He was not in there to drink or get lap dances, he was in there so he would not have to be home alone without his best friend. SO SAD! So I talked to him, I told him about Chhaya and he shared about his doggie friend and then I gave him a good hug. He thanked me. It is not always about making as much money as possible (at least not for me), people go through up and downs in life and sometimes they just need somebody to listen to them.
Then of course we have the guys that simply can't get enough of girls. They have problems. Seriously, get help. One guy that comes in a lot in the summer time and spends quite a bit of money has a pregnant girlfriend at home. If that was my boyfriend/fiance/husband and he would go and spend money in a strip club while I am at home pregnant I would NOT be happy. That is completely unacceptable to me. So not cool. The other night he told me that we (meaning us dancers) are lucky because guys are so simple. All they want is food and sex. Pretty awful but sadly I kind of have to agree with him. Food and sex. Yep, sounds about right. Then he told me that his girlfriend was going to see Magic Mike and that he wasn't too happy about that. Yeah, watching some oiled up beef cakes gyrating on the big screen, guys you will never meet in real life and having lap dances from a real life breathing person right there is just so comparable. On top of it he gets dances from several girls in the club and tries to touch as much as possible. One night he walked up to me and announced that he would only get a dance with me if he could touch my "titties". Oh yeah? BARF and GROSS. I told him to go and find somebody else, I don't do that shit. Ever. Yeah, fun to have a boyfriend like him.
But you know what, I do think that most guys, given the chance are like that.


A super exciting Sunday is slowly coming to an end. I had lofty plans of going to Girdwood today for the last day of the Forest Fair but I woke up kind of late and then my friend that I was planning on going with didn't check her phone in time so our plan fizzled out. We both regretted not going but oh well......I guess I needed my sleep more.
So instead I did my usual errands, after getting a latte of course. I found this syringe laying on the ground in the Fred Meyer parking lot. Nothing like throwing your used needles on the ground.....of course I disposed of it. Yuck.

Later, after feeding myself and Chhaya, we went on a long walk. Found a large feather, not sure what kind of a bird it came from besides that it wasn't a small bird. Thank You bird!

Chhaya still had lots of energy when we got home so she wrestled with her big teddy while I made myself a comfortable nest in bed and in bed is where I have been for the last couple of hours. Feeling tired but don't want to sleep yet.

Super exciting Sunday, like I said. Very typical Sunday for me.

Happy 4th of July

Happy 4th of July everybody! Happy Independence Day! I have not decided if I am going to stay home and work later tonight or if I am going to drive to Girdwood and check out the 40th annual Forest Fair. It's a bit windy and chilly out, so I'm not sure. I hope everybody will have a wonderful day! ❤ ❤ ❤ I love America!
My friend Roxy took these pics of me last night and she let me borrow her flag, thank you Roxy!

The Palomino

When I was in Vegas I decided to try working at the Palomino, I have always been curious about that club. It has been around since 1969 and it's one of the oldest, if not the oldest, strip clubs in Las Vegas. It's the only club in Las Vegas that serves alcohol and has completely nude dancers. All the other clubs that serve alcohol have topless only dancers.

So one night I went in a tried it out. I have to say that the manager that hired me was very nice and professional, that is a HUGE plus. Also, in case you are curious about working there yourself, the first week you work it's free house fee. That is a great offer to take advantage of. The house fees vary depending on what time you come in. You have 45 minutes to get ready and dressed and be out on the floor after you walk into the club. If you are not ready within 45 minutes I guess you can be charged a $10 late fee. I think that 45 minutes is plenty of time to get ready.

But on top of the house fees there are plenty other tip outs at the Palomino, it can become pricey to work there. At the end of your shift you are to tip out the manager, the amount is not set so I guess it's up to you. The DJ, even if you do not go on stage. At the Palomino you have the option to stay off the stage. House Mom needs a tip too, even if you do not use her services or products. She has to sign a piece of paper before you leave so I guess that warrants for a tip (lame). Then you are supposed to valet your car, so the guy that parks your car needs a tip too. I personally hate valet parking, I do not want people I do not know have any access to and drive my car. I just don't like that.
And after every set of dances you do in the VIP room you are supposed to tip the floor "host" that signs you in when you enter the VIP room. I was told by the manager to tip $20 out of every $100 set I do. He told me that all the floor "hosts"/bouncers pool the tips and share them. BUT what? I am dancing 3 songs for $100 and then I'm supposed to give $20 of that away and keep $80 for myself? NO way, that is too much! From my understanding most girls give $10 out of the $100 for 3 songs and the $150 for 15 minutes, which is more fair BUT I don't think that you should pay anything for your dances to the club if you already pay a set house fee. You can also do $20 topless dances out on the floor on a couch in a corner but most people that get dances at the Palomino go in the VIP rooms. What the Fantasy Rooms are all about I do not know, those are located on the second floor. There is also a stage up there but that area did not open up the night I worked.

The VIP rooms are kind of private, meaning they are partially walled off and have sheer curtains that divide the small rooms from each other. The floor host walks around and also lets you know when your time is up. I felt like the Palomino might be too much hands on for my taste. I prefer clubs that are strictly no touching or restricted touching, those are the clubs I do best in. Because it makes it fair. I never ever offer more than lap dances and do not allow touching all over my body. I think that a lap dance is more than enough in a strip club, a full on body pat down is not necessary. I'm not saying that every dancer at the Palomino does extras (extras in strip club lingo means that the dancer offers more than just lap dances) but I do think that there are some that do, for sure. And to prove my point, check out these notices put up in the dressing room areas.

I definitely can't "compete" with that type of "entertainment". And I am using the word "compete" loosely here since I do not see it as a competition. I am a clean dancer, period.
And I take pride in that. If you are looking for something else, I am NOT the girl for you.
I feel like the management/owner of the Palomino put up these kind of messages to the dancers in the dressing rooms because it was a problem and getting out of hand. At least they are trying to clean up the club and not turning a blind eye to these issues, like so many other managers/owners sadly do. So I applaud them for their effort.
I should add here that the Palomino is located in North Las Vegas on Las Vegas Blvd, in an area that is considered bad. Now that doesn't bother me whatsoever. I have worked in many clubs in so called "bad" areas, that doesn't necessary mean that the money is bad.
Many clubs are located in sketchy areas, that's just how it is.
Next to the Palomino, separated by a parking lot, there is another club - Chicas Bonitas.
A club catering to the Latin community from what I understand. A friend of mine went in there to check it out and she told me that a few of the dancers at Chicas Bonitas told her that is was completely normal to leave the club with a guy visiting the club during your shift to a nearby hotel for some extracurricular activities, only to come back to the club when done. So if that is common at Chicas Bonitas it means that the club has a pretty seedy reputation, which tells me that the Palomino might have a similar reputation. I mean, it's right next door.
I felt a bit of a pedophilia vibe at the Palomino. Many of the dancers were under 21.
And looked like it too. Very small and barely developed. You can turn 18 and go in there and start working. The under 21 girls wear special bracelets that tell the cocktail waitresses that they can't be served alcohol plus they have to stay out of the bar area. I personally do not think that girls should be allowed to work in this business until they are 21, this is my own personal opinion based on what I have seen during my years dancing. I feel like many of the young girls are too immature to make good decisions and sometimes do things that they really don't want to do and that they can't stand up for themselves and say no. You might not agree with this but that is my opinion.
Since the Palomino is located in North Las Vegas you have to get a sheriff's card that is valid for that area of town.
Here are some other fun facts about the Palomino.....

The whole thing about sitting on the stage etc is or SHOULD BE common dancer etiquette but still needs to explained a lot to girls. Picking up money with your bare crotch? I mean, really now? I don't even feel like I need to comment on that one....

It is SAD that some "dancers" are prostitutes. Actually they are not dancers when they do whatever they do, they are hookers plain and simple. Do whatever you want to do OUTSIDE of the club. It's not my concern then. You want to have a pimp and have sex with different guys every day.....OK good for you.
Again, I like that the management and owner of the Palomino are working on this issue and that they are trying to uphold a good working environment for the girls.
I only worked at the Palomino one night. To be fair I think that you should work at a club for a week to get a good feel for it, unless there is something you absolutely hate about the place.
I did not stay a week because I had limited time left in Vegas and felt that I would make more money at a different club.