Welcome to Chaos !!

I landed in a cold, rainy and windy Chicago. Same weather as in Alaska. The day started out with some phone problems so my old phone is retired now and after some minor issues, I now have a Samsung Galaxy. I went to eat Polish food and stuffed myself full with three kinds of pierogis, sauerkraut, potatoes and apple pancakes and cheese blinies for dessert.
So yummy, tasted like home.



I am out and about now, the sun came out and is shining. Tomorrow......EDC!

According to the gossip Lindsay Lohan is very upset because the Betty Ford Center where she is doing her rehab decided to take away her Adderall, saying that she doesn't need it. Lindsay on the other hand is very adamant that she does need her Adderall to "focus". I guess Adderall is a very popular pill to pop in LA and other places too because it can keep you from gaining weight, it's an amphetamine after all. I know people that have an Adderall prescription and they are for sure NOT focused whatsoever. I don't take any drugs and can get more done in a few days than they do in a whole year, so to me the whole focus thing is a mystery. I don't even understand why anyone would want to take Adderall on an everyday basis, or even better, feed it to your kid. I am not a doctor (obviously) so I can't shell out a diagnosis but I am also aware of that there are many out there on Adderall. Do they all have some form of ADHD and/or do they all have a problem with focusing, whatever THAT means? Or are (some) doctors just handing out prescriptions left and right to pretty much anyone asking because there is a profit involved?
I can't even imagine being on Adderall. I would be so spazzed out and I can guarantee you that I would get all kinds of shit done, so much so that I would come to your house and get your life in military order too. I know that many take that stuff to control their weight, that is not a secret. I have never been on a diet. Well, ok I was on the Atkins diet for about a day once, it was totally disgusting and so not for me, I ended up vomiting and could not bear the thought to eat all kinds of meat and restrict my fruit and veggies. I'd rater eat only fruit and veggies and no meat. I also took some sort of diet pill once or twice, I got a bottle of diet pills (cant remember which kind it was so long ago) and they made me feel very uncomfortable and jittery, not a good feeling at all so I decided not to take them.
I tried speed once in Vegas, one night I went out with my friends, they all did it so I tried some, snorted it and felt great. Lots of energy but I always have lots of happy jumpy energy when I go clubbing. It was when we all got home and I still felt that energy but then it didn't feel good anymore, I felt nervous and edgy, I wanted to sleep but couldn't. And that was my first and last time doing that stuff, don't think I will ever try it again. I'd rather have fun on other drugs.......
As far as eating, I used to be very skinny when I lived in Sweden, I remember my waist was about 60 - 61 centimeters (24"), the reason I remember this is because I had seen a famous super models measurements mentioned in some article and I had the same. Now I am around 27".......more if I eat a lot but usually by morning I am back to 27.
I am no longer super skinny but whatever. I have about a 5 lbs weight range that I fluctuate between and I am not going to lie, I like my body better when I am on the lighter side of those 5 lbs. Because I think I look better at work then from a purely aesthetic viewpoint. But at the same time I don't diet, I don't have the willpower to diet, I like food way too much and I especially like foods that satisfy my sweet cravings - vanilla latte, pastries, ice cream. Once in a while I entertain the thought of doing a weekly 24 hour fast or some kind of a cleanse that lasts for days to "clean myself out". The idea sounds very appealing to me but in reality I know that I wouldn't last more than 24 hours probably.
I don't believe that Lindsay is taking her Adderall to focus, cause she is not getting anything done it seems besides drink and party. I think she is taking the Adderall to control her weight but people that do that rarely admit to it, instead they say that whatever prescriptions they are taking are prescribed to them by an all knowing doctor and that they do indeed need those pills.
I am planning on eating lots of Polish food in Chicago and enjoying every bite of it. If I gain weight then I gain weight, it will come off......or not.



On a different note.......I am in Minneapolis waiting for my connecting flight. Minneapolis looks beautiful from the air coming down. Large lush trees, green lawns and lots of small lakes. I think I would like it here.......

I am at the airport waiting for my flight. Destination Chicago. This will be my first time visiting Chicago. I miss Chhaya already, I don't like being away from her, I am having major separation anxiety. 😥
I don't like traveling at all, unless it is a road trip by car. That's fun. Flying is not fun.
But I am geared up for the flight, magazines and a new book that looks promising, Maya's Notebook by Isabel Allende. Then I am going to sleep, I always get a window seat so I can lean against the wall, I wrap myself up in a large cashmere scarf and nod off. I can sleep everywhere, even inside a speaker with loud and heavy bass at a rave if I have to.
I know I have lots of fans in Chicago......therefore I am going to take some time out of my busy schedule and do a meet and greet at Barbara's Bookstore at the Sear's Tower this coming Monday at 2 pm. Autographs and pictures. See you there! Bring me $$$ I need to go shopping.
It's almost time to board. Got to go.

I just got home and peeled off my fake lashes and washed off my make up. I usually reuse the same pair of lashes for up to three weeks, no need for a new pair every night. Speaking of lashes, I need to stack up on more, my fake lash supply is running low.
I liked the double ones I had a while back, I need to get some more of those. They are called Ardell Double Up lashes in case you need some too.
Well, I am going to sleep, I am tired and I need to get up early. I have a busy day tomorrow.

I had a pedicure yesterday, at a place in Kenai called Nail Boutique, my first time there. It was better than the place in Soldotna that I went to like twice. The first time I went there some lazy girl did my pedicure, she was so lethargic, moved slooooow and looked totally uninterested and did a bad job. The second time I went there I asked for her brother, he did a better job but not good enough for me to stay. So I decided on trying Nail Boutique. I am picky with my pedicures. I want a good job on the cuticles, square cut toes and a good foot massage, at least two coats of polish and a topcoat. I always bring my own polish. The lady today did an ok job. The massage kind of sucked, it is hard to find somebody that does a good job on that part. When they do I am sold! And she kept on answering the phone, taking appointments. I hate that. It is disruptive and rude. I always tip $ 10 on a pedicure, more if they do a great job. I still have to find a place around here that does a great job instead of a halfway decent one.



I had some pizza the other day, Margherita. I love pizza, it's like the prefect food, simple yet delicious. In a few days I am going to see what the pizza in Chicago is all about. I am going to stuff myself with pizza and Polish food. Then dance it off at EDC.



Funny thing happened at work tonight. Some guy recognized me from Whispers in Williston. He had only been to two clubs in his whole life, last year at Whispers and here tonight. And I was there both times and he recognized me (of course). It's a small world. Both clubs in Williston (Heartbreakers and Whispers) recently lost their liquor licenses. Whispers for a shorter time than Heartbreakers. I have heard that there are too many girls in both clubs and that you have to keep a distance from the guys when you do dances and that the money has dried up significantly. This is just what I have heard, I don't know for sure. I still get e mails and comments on the blogs I wrote about the clubs from girls that want to know how they can get a job there. I don't know, I haven't been there since last year and I don't have any plans to go back at the moment. Sitting around at a small club with 20 + other girls with not enough guys does not sound appealing to me. I might as well stay where I am or go somewhere new.
It also snowed here the other night. The cold is sticking around. Today when I was walking Chhaya it was so windy and cold that I felt sorry for myself. Then I heard about the tornado in Oklahoma and all the people that lost their lives. I no longer felt sorry for myself. I felt really bad for the people in Oklahoma instead. How terrible. I can't even imagine going through something like that. One day you go about your normal life and the next your house is ripped apart by a tornado and you wonder if your loved ones are dead or alive. Crazy.

It is the night between Sunday and Monday, 1 15 am to be specific. I am such a night person. I got up at 10 am today and the first thing I did was to take Chhaya outside and made a bed for myself on the patio and snoozed outside for a few hours. I needed more rest for some reason. Plus I really like to sleep outside when I can. When the afternoon rolled around I finally felt energized enough to start my day. I did such exciting things today as going to the dump with a bunch of trash, very glamorous! Got a latte, so luxurious! I always sprinkle cinnamon on my latte.



Got food, watched tv and started a late night cleaning endeavor. All my energy comes at night time. Now I am finally in bed. I have a new book to read. Paulo Coelho, Manuscript Found in Accra .
New week tomorrow or today to be correct since it is Monday. Some people get really excited over Mondays, like "Yeeeehaw, a new week is here and I am getting all kinds of stuff done". To me, the days don't matter.