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New book to read

Here is Chhaya with my latest book that I am going to start reading today. The Last Nude by Ellis Avery. I have been wanting it for a while.
I have a list of books that I am interested in, if I see an ad or a description of a book in a magazine or somebody tells me about a book I might find interesting I make a note of it and then check the books off once I find them. I love reading.

Today started great, I locked my keys in my truck and had to call Alaska Cab so they could unlock my car for me. I need one of those things you jam down the window to open up the door, that would come in handy.
Then I put my latte down in the yard for a few minutes, when I picked it up and took a gulp it was something in there, like a fly maybe because I could feel it go down my throat. So gross! Earlier I had read about some poor man in India that had a 13 centimeters long worm crawling behind his eyelid. So now I am thinking about that fly in my stomach crawling around.
A good old Polish remedy to kill any bacteria in your stomach, eat sauerkraut straight out of the jar or some extra hot horseradish, yum.......I love them both.
Besides that, it is sunny but cold because it is windy. Me and Chhaya are hanging out and enjoying life. I made her a shelter because she gets too hot in the sun. Life is good. It's the last day of June. We are halfway through 2012.

With Santa

Here I am hanging out with Santa Claus. I usually see him in June to give him my Christmas wish list early on because I want so many presents.
What I really wish for is that people would be kinder and more considerate towards animals. There are so many animals that suffer and are close to extinction because of mankind. The worst and most selfish predator out there. I am so sick of selfish people, I see them all the time.

Do you see the painting of the gas mask hanging on the wall behind me on the pic? That one, the gargoyle and many more really cool paintings can be found on
The artist's name is Natasha, she is Polish like me (!) and I think her art is very interesting and striking.
Photo by Barry Gallegos.

Lame Friday

I am so glad to be home, showered and sipping on some tea, it's 4 AM. Tonight was a lame Friday for being the end of June, I left at 3 because I couldn't stand it anymore. This is supposed to be the busy season. A lot of times I can make up for the lack of dances with the tips I make on stage but not tonight, surprisingly very bad stage tips tonight. Oh well, tomorrow in another day.
More girls are flocking to the club because they think that summer time equals money here right now. Well, so far this week has been bad. Unless you have a regular guy that comes in and spends all his money on you, a few of the girls have that, good for them.
So we have five returning girls this week (so far), meaning they have worked at the club before. And four new ones showed up tonight that I have never seen before, I think they came from Anchorage. One was absolutely awful looking from head to toe, two not bad and one really cute, she had a super pretty face and a nice smile.
But since tonight wasn't that good I am not sure if they got discouraged or not. Sometimes it is not worth it to travel for work as a dancer.
The money is uncertain. Then you have to pay for either a plane ticket or gas, maybe rent a car or take a taxi to and from work, unless you arrive in your own car of course. Then you have the living expenses, hotel rooms are not cheap. All of that combined has to be considered before you can count your profits.
What I like about traveling is that I get to be in a new environment that feels fresh. I have a different energy and I usually feel more motivated to work and I also work every night I am away. And then there is seeing the new sights in the daytime too. The only place I cut short on so far was Scarlet O'Haras in Sioux Falls, I was planning on being there for two weeks and I left after one. I did not think that it was good at all. Maybe I came during the wrong time or something. So I drove about 200 miles to another club and started that same night and I made much better money there.
I can feel my eyes getting heavy, so I am going to turn off the light and enjoy some sleep now.

Work stories

I needed to take a break fom laying out in the sun. Eating and writing now, going back outside later.
Sooooo, the last few days at work have been awful. I guess this is the worst June ever? It depends on the fish. This town depends heavily on the fishing season during the summer, people come here in droves from all around the world for just that, well at least they used to.
It's that king salmon they want, the bigger the better. Well, Fish and Game has decided that you cannot catch any king salmon right now, neither are you allowed to do catch and release. Some people think it is amusing to catch a fish, traumatize it and then let it go.
Why I do not know. I guess that's part of the allure of fishing (???). I don't fish. Last time I fished I think I was nine. At a lake in Sweden.
I did catch a fish. That fish got buried, I made a cross for it, put flowers on it's grave and shed a few tears. I am sorry little fishy that I hurt you! I remember you even to this day. Do I ever eat fish? I have but it's rarely that I do. I eat meat but rarely also. If people cared to find out how the animals are treated and how they are killed most would be appalled. It is very very bad and very sad. I love animals but right now I can't say that I am 100% vegetarian.
So, since the fishing for the king salmon is on hold right now, we are not seeing as many people here, it's actually a severe drop. I also think that people are traveling less due to the high expenses related to travel. And when it's all said and done, most don't have a few spare 100's to go and throw around in the strip club.

Then the man that complained to management a few weeks ago that I am mean and rude (booohoooo) was in last night. He apologized to me and said that he had no right to insult me. Exactly! Of course I accepted the apology. Then he wanted to chat with me all night, it became somewhat annoying rather fast. He is kind of nice but I am not a big fan of getting burped in the face, he did that three times , yuck! He also likes to trash talk the other girls. And I do not sit around with guys that I do not know and talk bad about my co workers regardless of what I think about them. I will and do talk trash (the truth) about other people to people that I know and in case you wonder, I have no problem standing by my opinions. If I don't like you for whatever reason and you really want to know how I feel, I will gladly inform you of it. And of course I will write about how I perceive certain people and situations HERE. ;-)
Then we had another lame guy in last night. He sat at the bar stage, we have a small stage with a pole inside the bar. He kept on staring at me while I was dancing like a bona fide perv. Finally halfway through my second song I looked at him and said, "Are you going to tip me"?
He looked like a confused dummy.......tip? What? Yes, T-I-P you moron, common practice in a strip club, especially since you are staring at me like a hungry dog. So he reluctantly gives me ONE dollar. LOL. And by the way, he didn't tip the other girls either. So I am not totally out of line here people!
Then he kept on looking at me when I was sitting opposite from him but I just ignored him, of course. Why should I even bother? A little later I walked by him and some girl must had told him that I am Polish because he said something in Polish to me. And I said, "Now you want to talk after you didn't even want to tip me when I was one stage......puhleease". The moron said, "But I did tip you". "Yeah, after I asked for a tip", I said. "Save your language skills for somebody that wants to hear them because I don't", I said and sauntered away. Kiss my ass buddy and save your dollar. You know how to say something in Polish? Wow. Yeah, besides being fluent in three languages I also know how to communicate in two more, that makes it five total. So I am not impressed by you. And on top of that, if and when I go to a strip club I have the deceny to tip the girls if I sit at the stage.

Then we had some more drama. After I had already left the other night, one of my co workers tried to pickpocket one of the guys! Can you believe this? I do not care how annoying guys can be at times in the club, I would never steal from anyone in there. And this is supposedly not the first time she had done something like this. And guess what? She didn't get fired! I am VERY surprised and disappointed, this girl needs to go. She is the one that walks around telling guys that she is "easy and sleazy". She sits at the bar and lets guys dig up inside her butt cheeks. And she supposedly, according to another girl, kept on dropping some kind of pill out of her purse, like Percocet or something.
If anyone is going to contribute to the clubs demise it is going to be her (and other girls that act like that). I do not care if you are a slut and a thief outside of the club, do whatever you want in your private life. But acting like that at a place where I work, destroying my income is absolutely not ok. And I like this girl, she seems pretty nice and she is really funny BUT her behavior at work is totally wrong in too many ways. Therefore, she should no be allowed to work there.
And another thing, the one that got butt hurt because I would not let her go on stage before me the other night.......she was wasted by
9 30 PM and had to take a taxi home. Really classy. Seriously, control yourself. She is a drunk sorry slob. And I heard that she too tried to swipe some money that did not belong to her recently. What is up with that? Oh and she thinks that all the girls are jealous of her too. Really? LOL. The day when I will be jealous of a drunk, trashy, overweight slob with a shapeless body and a bad face will never come. And I highly doubt that anyone else in there is jealous of her sorry ass, she is THAT pathetic.
Well, enough of this for now. Just wanted to let you know what's been going on at work the last couple of nights.


More pics from my shoot with Barry Gallegos. Check out the painting of the demon/gargyle hanging on the wall, I love it!

This comment needs an answer.....

One of my lovely readers left me this comment with a few questions that I will try to answer.......

"Seems like every club has got vagine exams going on. Or can you think of an actual club that doesn't have that bull shit happening!? Men are pretty much pigs and will slap the women on the ass unless the women say no. Aren't there suppose to be bouncers there to stop shit like that? More dancers should think like you do. There is nothing wrong with some self respect!"

First of all thank you for recognizing that self respect is something good, not everybody seems to think so. I meet guys at work ALL the time that think I am snooty and rude because I do not let them paw all over me or talk rudely to me. That makes me "stuck up", "mean" and "no fun".
Well, GOOD - I will never allow anyone treat me like that, unless me and whomever I am intimate with in my private life have some kind of a fun game going on in the bedroom.

Have I worked in clubs where they were strict about the touching? Yes. And I prefer those clubs because it makes it more fair for the girls. You make your money based on other things than how lenient/nasty you are during your lap dances. Let me rattle of a few clubs that I have tried.
For example, when I worked at Flashdancers in NYC, air dances only, you could go very close and kind of lightly brush up against people but guys could not touch you. They were strict about that. Good! And I didn't see any girls getting out of control. I did very well there, I was one of the most requested girls during my short stint there. It was lots of fun. I need to go back! I am not sure how the lap dances are there now, maybe things have changed, they often do.
At Heartbreakers and Whispers in Williston guys are supposed to have their hands to the side, I did see some girls allow some extra stuff happen but it was fairly well monitored by the bouncers that peek into the lap dance areas frequently, though some girls did tip the bouncers to get away with stuff. I do not like that. It's shady.
The Great Alaskan Bush Company in Anchorage, also hands to the side. Pretty well obeyed though of course there were some girls that figured out ways for guys to discreetly touch their boobs. And I also saw girls casually touch guys in between their legs over the pants, of course.
Crazy Horse Too, Las Vegas back in the day when being a Crazy Horse dancer actually was something special. Did you know that Jenna Jameson danced there, she started dancing very young. Also Dita Von Teese danced there. Anyways, back in the day the guys could touch you a little during dances, like legs, butt, waist, it was up to the girls. There were also many girls that would not let guys touch them at all or only allow touching in the VIP room ( minimum $ 100 for three songs) and not out on the main floor. Girls were looked at as "princesses" almost and many acted like it too. And I like that! If a guy in there asked if you wanted to sleep with him for money you were supposed to tell one of the bouncers and the guy got escorted out right away. Then the club started going downhill and so did the quality of the dancers. I saw boob grabbing for $ 20/song and heard rumors of other stuff. Very unfortunate. That place used to be great, many girls made big bucks there. It is no longer open.
Sapphire, Las Vegas. A rather dirty place. I saw too many girls act so nasty there. There was even one girl that offered $ 20 hand jobs instead of dances, totally gross. I got sick of working there because you can't compete with that shit. Bouncers were looking the other way because girls would grease their palms. I complained to management and received very negative feedback. I even had some correspondence about this issue with a local Las Vegas paper, you can search my blog for those blog entries, this is years ago now. Remember, my blog has entries dating back to 2006....... :-)
The club I am at now in Soldotna can be rather dirty to be honest (due to some of the girls). You do not have to do anything, I don't.
Ok, I am fine with some light touching - arms, legs, butt (no digging inside my butt cheeks), waist etc. The dances are contact dances, most clubs have contact dances. But at least 50 % or more of the guys that I dance for have their hands to the side. Once in a while I get guys that try to get away with stuff but I am always in control and if things really get out of hand, I stop the dance and that's it.
I've had to do that a few times in different clubs, not often at all though. And yes, there has been a few times (very few) when some very sneaky guy managed to quickly cop a feel of a boob but that never lasted for more than a split second.
What they need is somebody to monitor the dances better (in every club) and really implement the rules. Seems like every girl except me and a few more do allow boob touching (in places where you can get away with it). To me that's just too much. I have seen girls getting their boobs mauled, yuck. It is almost normal nowadays, the boob touching. But I like my boobs way too much to have random guys grab on them every night. I would NOT enjoy that. You can look but you cannot touch! ;-)
As far as VAGINE touching goes, that should NEVER be allowed. To me that is absolutely crossing the line. Why any girl would allow guys with unwashed hands stroke, finger, whatever their VAGINE is mind boggling to me. And I have seen this at more than one club.......
These girl RUIN stripping for all the other girls. They should get a warning the first time, suspended the second and the second and fired if it happens again.
Go work in a brothel, at least the guys get their schlongs disinfected first and have to wash their hands. And you will hopefully make lots of money.
Also, any kind of lap dancing that is too much in my opinion, besides letting guys touch you down there (NASTY).......sucking on boobs (makes me want to throw up), giving guys hummers over their pants (how TACKY, let me chomp down on your pants after you shook off your pee from your penis on them), choking or slapping the girls hard, girls rubbing their hands over guys crotches (resembles hand jobs), any kind of hand job or bj or actual sex, ummmmmm and some other weird lap dance moves I've had the pleasure to witness over the years. Like upside down, totally naked VAGINE thrusted in your face and similar acrobatic moves like that. Crazy looking wrestling with the guys to keep their hands at bay. Though I've had my share of those situations too. Sometimes you get an overly excited octopus (guy).
Basically, clubs need to monitor the lap dances better, not let girls get away with shit like that. And some girls don't know how to stand their ground, that's where the bouncers come in with guidelines. There will always be some girls acting nasty and you just have to weed them out, it's simple. Because it is no fun trying to explain to guys that no, you cannot touch me down there or suckle on my boobs like a baby even though Candy, Bambi, Sexxxy, Hot Chocolate, Vanessa (made up names) let you do that to her earlier. Say NO ladies! You do not have to do that, really!
I don't and I make ok money. Trust me, guys will buy dances even if they are not allowed to touch (or limited touching), I have worked in plenty of clubs with a no touching rule and the girls were still making money......! Stripping should be more of a tease and it can be done very tastefully, sensual and erotic, it does not have to be a porn show. Something to think about........!

And some guys might think, after reading this that I hate my job, hate men, must be a lesbian because I don't allow guys to grab me all over at work. And the answer is NO to all of the above.
I like my job, I like men in general and I am not a lesbian. I actually think that the girls that let guys do whatever to them in the club and get wasted every night in order to deal with it have more problems with how they relate to men than I will ever have.

Chilly Morning

Just got home. Chilly out, only 42˚ F according to some thermometer I passed on my way home.
Work was kind of sloooow, a very slow start at least. Had some minor drama with a girl that did not want to go on stage after me because she "didn't want Tatiana to take all the money". Really? Like guys only tip one girl and that's it. It's not like they sit and wait just for me and then throw all their money on me, well majority of them don't at least, it would be nice if that was the case though. Usually I let girls go ahead of me when they ask, I've done that before but this girl annoys me, she talks shit, has a bad attitude and does dirty lap dances, so why should I help her out? DA NANG!
Yesterday I went to the movies with Lexi, we saw Rock Of Ages . Lots of singing, because it's a musical with 80's Rock music. I liked it, it was entertaining and they sang "I Want to Know What Love Is" by Foreigner - I LOVE that song! I also liked the strip club scenes in the movie, nice showcase of talent. I think we are going to the movies next week again.
But I am going to bed now.......feeling sleepy.

New Pics!

Here are three brand new pics that Barry Gallegos took of me at a super nice house when I was in Vegas a few weeks ago.
You like? I do. Me and Barry have fun shooting, we have a few future shoots planned that I am looking forward to.
There are more pics from this shoot that I will put up soon, I don't want to put up all at once.......

Another rainy day here in Kenai.......

After a week or so of absolutely gorgeous weather it is pouring down. And according to the weather forecast it will do so for the reminder of the week.
Fun! Not. It is coming down pretty hard right now, I was hoping to go running again today but not if it's raining like this.......but it might slow down in a few hours, I can only hope. Because it is dreary outside right now.
Work last night was slow but kind of fun, lots of laughing and joking around. It is funny how you go from taking home $ 800 one night (that is AFTER all the tip outs) to making a "meager" $ 100 the following night. Dancers usually tip out a lot and it also depends on the the club. Some clubs have a fixed price, like Heartbreakers for example, last time I worked there it was $ 120 to work. And out of that $ 20 went to the dj. Though he was hustling (aggressively) for extra tips from us girls all night long and some of the girls also made the guys tip the bouncers to allow them to be "naughty". LOL! Really? Not me (do I really have to mention this?)
I think the dj there (at Heartbreakers) makes plenty, depending on how many girls show up in a night but he averages just from the $ 20 he gets from each girl about $ 300/night, if there are 15 girls in the club, sometimes there are more girls. Whether he makes an hourly salary from the club I don't know. And he doesn't work as hard, in my opinion as the dancers, going on stage, asking for dances, doing lap dances, walking in very high heels, getting ready for work - showering, make up, investing in outfits for work etc.
But the dancers don't make a salary. Very FEW clubs pay the girls a salary and in every club I have worked the girls had to pay the club to work there and tip the dj and sometimes the rest of the staff too, bouncers, bartenders, cocktail waitresses etc.
In some clubs the tip out depends on how well you did that night, I think I prefer those clubs, unless I would work in a club where I would make good money EVERY night, like I did in New York City for example. But most clubs are pretty inconsistent, some nights can be bad, average, good or excellent and some you actually leave with no more than $ 20. And when I say I made $ 800 the other night, that means I tipped out about $ 200, so I really made $ 1000.
But the good thing about working in a club where the tip out depends on your total earnings is that when you do have a bad night, you don't have tip tip out anything or very little.
And when you work in a club with a fixed price a bad night doesn't matter, you still need to pay the club whatever they charge you to work, regardless of how much you make that night. Does my explanation make sense?
There are actually some clubs being sued right now by dancers that presented to the court that they did not get any hourly wages to work at the club and still had to pay the club to work and tip out to the staff and also got fined for various stuff, like being late for stage etc. And the court has found in favor of the dancers!
I need to look into the details of a certain recent case I've heard of and when I find out more I can blog about it.
Unfortunately some clubs really take advantage of the dancers in a bad way. Like at Flashdancers in New York, when I worked there you made your schedule a week in advance. If you happened to be sick during any of the scheduled days you had to pay the club a fine of $ 100 each day! That is pretty steep and I am not aware of any other workplace that endorses that practice. I actually came down with a bad cold while working there and missed two of my scheduled days, that cost me $ 200. If you get a cold or the flu it is difficult to make a quick recovery since many of the clubs keep it pretty cold inside and the girls wear next to nothing while in there.
I am also aware of other clubs that fine you for showing up late for work, for not making your stage on time and calling in sick. I think that is wrong so I do hope that the club owners rethink their practices or more girls will sue and most likely win due to employment regulations and guidelines
that also encompass dancers, though certain clubs think that they can treat the girls like crap.
The club owners should realize that without girls willing to work there, it would only be a regular bar, it is the girls that draw the crowd and the girls should be appreciated. A lot of times you are treated like commodity, just another body.
I stay away from clubs that take too much of your income from you, some places just take so much that it is not worth my time being there.
Also, I don't think that the girls should tip out to the bartender and/or the cocktail waitresses. They make their own tips and don't share THEIR tips with me, so why should I give part of my money to them? Also many of them make an hourly wage, I don't. I do not mind tipping the dj. I gladly do that.
And one more thing before I go.......some girls claim that they ALWAYS make good money, even on a slow night. Yap, yap, yap - stripper chatter.
If the club is near empty and there are more girls there than guys some girls will not make a lot that night. To claim that you always bank because you are SUCH a good hustler or SOOOOO beautiful is just lame and a lie. I have bad nights sometimes but I don't care and I am not too shabby to look at.
Now if I had a bad night every night, that would be a problem. I would change clubs or take a look at myself and decide whether I should continue dancing or not. But I do not "hustle" to make money. Either you want a dance from me or not - it is that simple.
And I think that clubs definitely should hire quality girls over quantity. Quality girls are better for business. And usually, with a strong emphasis on the usually, quality girls are classier and less nasty than the not so good looking and trashy girls. Though I have seen pretty girls do some nasty stuff and that always amazes me. With quality I mean not only a certain level of attractiveness but also the way you carry yourself. And I do not dance because I thrive on getting attention from men, I am used to that and I really don't care. I am dancing because I can support myself by doing so and I also like the freedom it brings me and more often than not I have fun doing it, even though I do encounter annoying guys on a regular basis at work.
Well, it is still raining. I am going to try and download some sings onto my iPod now.


Tatiana got up around 12 30 PM, fed Chhaya and drove into town to do some errands and get that fritter and a latte.
Came home and ate some food. Includidng that fritter for dessert.

After a short siesta it was time for Chhaya's walk, though it was drizzling out and after that Tatiana went for a 25 minute run. It felt great.....afterwards.
Right now Tatiana is sipping on some hot tea with lemon and sugar. Soon it will be time to prep for another night at work.

A very pretty girl!