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Tatiana went skiing at Alyeska yesterday, finally, after thinking about it long enough. It was great. Yesterday was the last date of night skiing and Tatiana did not want to miss out on that. Alyeska will be open a few more weeks before the season is over. Tatiana might go again, she promised herself that she will ski more, instead of just think about it. Because then she will just regret that she didn't go more often, cause it is really lots of fun to ski. She should apply that philosophy to all aspects of her life actually. Do instead of think.
Today Tatiana is doing laundry and catching up on things.

As promised.......

...........recent pictures of Tatiana, these were taken last December, on Tatiana's birthday actually, nice birthday memory! The location is Kincaid Park, Anchorage and Tatiana wouldn't be looking this beautiful without the supertalented photographer Mick Cukurs.
Chhaya as always, is perfect.



These were taken when Tatiana was in Vegas last. Tatiana wouldn't look this gorgeous without the super talented photographer Marcos Rivera.

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Ok, so now the dummy Jesse James, some LAME guy that got known for some tv show called "Monster Garage" and that's more known for being married to Sandra Bullock came out apologizing profusely because he supposedly cheated on her. Well, Sandra moved out from the lovey, happy household. He is sorry. Whatever. He is probably sorry that he is going to lose his movie star wife and status, that's what he is sorry about.
Tatiana doesn't really care about him BUT this is what's bugging her........ Jesse has a daughter, Sunny, with his ex wife Janine Lindemulder. Him and Sandra don't want Janine to have custody or shared custody of Sunny, remember Janine is the birth mother, not Sandra, that btw does not have children of her own. They claim Janine is an unfit mother due to that she used to be a porn film actress/star, actually she is Tatianas favorite porn actress. VERY YUMMY! Tatiana bought one porn movie in her life, one of Janines, she is HOTTTTT!!! Way cuter than Sandra, she is just a plain lady Tatiana thinks. So they have been bashing Janine in court, saying that she is an unfit mom and bla bla bla, Janine has been very nice throughout the process, only saying positive things about Sandra. Sandra and Jesse have been talking about their oh so wonderful marriage, they are such a great couple, right? And now this! LOL. So if their marriage was so perfect like they were busy pretending, why was he cheating? Hello?! Supposedly this has been going on for a while too. He cheated with some rather ugly, raunchy chick, full of tattoos, a big tattoo on her forehead. Janine has tattoos too. But she is good looking compared to this thing he cheated on his wife with. Jesse obviously has a penchant for the "bad girl" type, not "the girl next door".
And if he was so concerned with Janine being an unfit mother, he should have used his scrawny little brain and thought about this before they made a baby together. He was also married to Janine and left her when she was PREGNANT, for Sandra, supposedly. What a nice guy! Janine also did some jail time for tax evasion, whatever......the IRS should dig into Jesses money affairs. Air his dirty laundry.
Tatiana thinks that Jesse is a loser, Sandra is no good either, this is what she gets. Go Janine! And hopefully, in the end, the kids involved in this mess will all come out ok.
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Tatiana broke down and joined a gym the other day. She has not been to one to work out since October of last year, that is also when she stepped on a scale last......So yesterday Tatiana worked out and stepped on the scale......WTF!? The scale was showing frightening numbers! Maybe there was something wrong with the scale, cause Tatiana did NOT like what she saw! Late night, after work coffees with half and half and sugar and chips are from now NOT happening anymore. Tatiana is wishfully blaming some of the pounds on bloating and water retention since she also started her period yesterday.
She is going to weigh herself again next week. Hopefully the results will be better.
Besides this, it is a cold and gloomy day. No fun. Tatiana has a cold and a belly ache, she does not want to go to work at all but she is going to anyways.

Tatiana likes coffee

Tatiana remembers when she was little, she used to think coffee seemed so gross. Now she really likes it, coffee doesn't give her energy, she can drink a mug or two right before bed and go to sleep with no problem. Tatiana likes the way coffee beans smell and then she likes the taste, she needs lots of sugar and half and half, maybe some vanilla flavor a and whipped cream too.
Here is Tatiana drinking coffee.

Early Saturday morning

Tatiana got home from another night at work not too long ago. She took Chhaya out real quick and then made herself some tea (Earl Grey with sugar and lemon). Soon she will shower and go to sleep. She is happy to be home. It is nice and quiet.
She is thinking about going to the gym when she wakes up, sometimes around noon. But that is just a thought right now, sometimes thoughts do not become reality in Tatianas world, they remain just thoughts.
So remember that girl that Tatiana mentioned a few blogs ago, that works at a strip club in Stockholm, Sweden? Well, she just came out and said that she used to be a man. Tatiana does not know if this is true or not, it might just be something she is saying to get some extra attention because she is getting quite a lot of that in Sweden. Or it might be true, many people have commented on that she looks like a man. She is blonde, fake hair color, she has big boobs, fake. Her body seems ok, in some pictures it looks really nice but sometimes reality and pictures are two totally different things.
Tatiana has worked with men or men that had operations and became women in strip clubs before, in Vegas. There were at least three of them that Tatiana knew of at the Crazy Horse Too. One was very obviously a man, with man arms, a face to match that and absolutely no hips, but he/she made money. Why? He/she had big blonde hair and very large boobs, that helps a lot in a strip club. Most guys are drunk anyways and they only see the big boobs, that's all they focus on. Dummies.........
Girls can look like shit in the face and the overall figure but if they have some ratty blonde hair, even if it is extensions and some huge boobs, they will make money. Tatiana has witnessed this countless of times.
Are there any men, or women that used to be men working at The Bush Company, you are wondering now? YES! Two. You probably had dances from them. They booth look superhot and could fool most, they had really good surgeries.
No, no, no, Tatiana is just kidding!!! No, NO sex change dancers at The Bush. But some of the girls working could use some help in the "how to be more feminine" department. But whatever, either you got it or you don't.
Here are some things that Tatiana thinks are not so feminine. Really short hair. Can be cute on some girls but in general, not so much. Too many tattoos, unless you are Daisy from "Daisy Of Love", her tattoos are nice and thought out and she is very girlie. A bad walk - ugh. That just looks awful. A deep voice or a laugh that sounds like a cackling hen - yuck. Girls that burp super loud, drawn out burps - gross. A manly face - get an operation. No curves - women should have a waist and hip definition. Rough skin - it's easy to have soft skin, just exfoliate on a regular basis and use lotion.
Well, Tatiana is getting sleepy. She will write more another time.


Yep, Tatiana got a little chunky while in Vegas. She estimates that about five lbs of chunk is spread out around her thighs and butt and waist. Gross.
This has to go. And it is not going anywhere because Tatiana can't diet, she likes food too much and being hungry makes her very annoyed. And being very annoyed and working at The Bush is not a good thing.
There's only one other solution. Liposuction! Tatiana found a super cheap doctor or actually a med student, he is going to perform the liposuction this Sunday from his home that he kind of converted into like a hospital, kind of, it's cheap and Tatiana is really excited. She will be back at work just one week later, skinny and happy! This is great, a med student performing cheap lipo from his apartment!
LOL. No actually, Tatiana is just kidding. Hello! No liposuction, at least not yet.
No, the solution is the gym. Tatiana has not been to the gym since October, so it has been a while. The gym is the only thing that will help the chunk to go away besides a diet, and Tatiana is going to continue with her regular diet, which is "eat what you want", it's a great diet, you should try it too!
So yeah, Tatiana has been feeling like a chunk monster at work. The chunk is like very visible when you are wearing next to nothing, well actually nothing besides heels while on stage. Chunk is much easier to camouflage underneath clothes. But not at work. So the chunk has to go.
Tatiana will keep all of you up to date on the progress. She might go to the gym once, max twice a week. Tatiana is lazy and likes sleeping..........


Tatiana got a present! Her much loved "Starfish" by OLIVIA, an artist she really likes.
Thank you!!!
Isn't it SO GORGEOUS !?!

If you want to see some of Olivias art, go to
Not all of her stuff is here though, actually a few of Tatianas favorites are not.