Tired Stripper

I am TIRED. Physically and mentally. After a three week break from work and exercising I went back to work last night. I was the last girl in the lap dance room and the last girl to leave.
It was 5 am and bright outside when I left the club. I remember the days when I danced in Vegas and I sometimes would leave the club around 7 am, the sun would be shining bright in my eyes (sunglasses was a must) and it would already be like 90°F outside. I also went for a run yesterday and today my body feels achy, heavy and sore. The running and the going on stage and the lap dances I did last night makes for a tired stripper today.
And now the mental part......I am kind of over it.....the whole dancing thing. At least right now. I can very possible feel different about that next week if I ask myself the same question.
I guess most people get bored and unmotivated with their occupation unless you are lucky to do something that is very rewarding and stimulating. And dancing is for the most part......NOT. It can be fun, even lots of fun but challenging or mentally stimulating? Not for me at least. Last night I was just so not feeling it. And looking around seeing some stuff that was going on in the lap dance room (it never ceases to bother me) I just wanted to scream.
I had a good night money wise. When it was all said and done I paid the club $ 115 in house fee and lap dance fees. Here we have to pay $ 5 to the club out of every dance that we do.
In some clubs you keep all your lap dance money and pay a flat fee to work. And on top of that I paid another $ 80 to the dj, the lady that counts the dances, the waitress, the bartender and the "house mom". So I basically paid out almost $ 200 of the money I made yesterday.
I always give the dj the largest cut of my money and I am rather generous with him. He plays my music and he knows what I like and I like him as a person. What I do not understand or agree with is WHY I should give any of my money to the waitress and the bartender?
They make an hourly salary (I don't) and the guys in there tip them as well. So then they should give some of their money to me to be fair? Why should I tip them? When I have a bad night I don't have an hourly wage to fall back on. They get tips and so do I. Clubs always find ways to charge and/or fine dancers for all kinds of things. I also got asked (repeatedly) to hang out or meet up after work more than once last night. I understand that guys ask and if you don't ask you won't know and some girls do hang out after work and go and entertain people in their hotel rooms. But I DON'T! And I don't think that I give off that vibe either (my demeanor is more standoffish I have heard more than once and I am totally OK with that btw) or make any promises about any outside the club play dates. It just gets exhausting to tell people no and have to explain that even though I am sure you are a perfectly nice guy I do not have any interest in continuing this conversation with you somewhere else at 5 am.
Thanks......but NO THANKS.
Well, thanks for letting me vent a little. I am actually going to schlep my tired body to the gym right now and then I am going home to give Chhaya lots of love and take her for a walk. Tonight? Back to work to do it all over again...... YEAY!!!!!!